Have you ever found yourself pining for love? I’m not just talking about some meaningless fling or high school crush. I mean the real-deal. Someone who will cherish you, take delight in sharing your crazy dreams and holding you when you are falling apart. My best friend has recently entered a new relationship which is all mushy, with a smattering of butterflies and rainbows. To some people that makes them wanna hurl, but for me…well it sent me into a deep funk. I feel this irrepressible desire to love and be loved. I feel that there is something or rather someone missing in my life.
This is somewhat embarassing for me to write, but eh, you my friend know way too much anyway. Also, I get the feeling that I’m not the only one who feels this way.
I know I am only 19 and so having a meltdown about being a spinster is a little over-dramatic, but that’s just how I feel. What if I never meet someone? What if nobody finds me attractive? Or what if I’m just TOO weird to ever find my other half?
Then I read a post which hit me like a bucket of ice-water. I’m not stupid for having these feelings. I’m not pathetic, desperate or crazy.
I’m a hopeless romantic.
Love sets my soul on fire. Love brings me joy, gives me hope and keeps me alive. Love is my oxygen.
There is nothing wrong with being sensitive or showing emotion. I don’t keep things bottled inside, I wear my heart on my sleeve.
The world needs people like us! The day-dreamers, the gushers, and the poets. We bring the colour, softness and sunshine into the world. Don’t be ashamed of how you feel. Share your joy, laughter and love with the world.
So to all my fellow romantics out there…grab a bowl and a spoon…I’ve got some cookies just for you!
Peanut butter chocolate chip cookies:
- 1 can chickpeas, drained and rinsed
- 2 Tbsp honey (or maple syrup)
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- 1/2 cup peanut butter
- 1/3 cup dark chocolate chips
It’s as simple as placing all of the ingredients (except the chocolate) in a food processor and blending it up. Stir in the chocolate chips. Roll/spoon balls onto a greased cookie tray. Bake at 180C for 10-12 minutes or until golden.
So hopefully you can have a cookie or two (or let’s be honest, the whole tray)…and realize that being a big softy is not a bad thing!
“These full, full hearts they sing of strength and beauty. They have a place in this world. They have a great and wondrous purpose. We are imperfectly perfect and can smile and cry at the same time about it. But in the end, we love. And love, is the most important emotion to know.” – Sonya Matejko
Lots of love,
8 thoughts on “Chocolate chip cookies and real talk…”
I’ve been there, but never fear, God hears your heart. After all, he created it! You never know who is just around the corner. There was someone special for me, and there will be someone for you too. Ps 21:2
Aw thanks Gay. That’s true! And I’m holding on to it.
Aww this is so beautiful! You’re definitely not alone, being a romantic is so much more fun though, we see the world in a better way 😉 but don’t feel sad, believe that your time will come and it’ll be worth the wait! Can’t think of anything else inspirational except listen to the organ that’s sitting snugly in your pericardium ❤ love ya xoxo
Thank you ❤ I don't think I'd have it any other way.
Wow, I relate to that first paragraph so much. Since I was little I’ve had the same yearning for a love so freaking deep and real..so passionate it hurts. I’m 19 as well and I used to feel absolutely ridiculous for craving something that seems so unattainable in today’s society..young love, a lasting marriage, a HAPPY monogamous partnership. Then I met my current boyfriend in a not so romantic way, at a party, where neither of us was sober or remembered much about one another the next day. We didn’t take it slow. We weren’t responsible with our feelings. We didn’t do ANYTHING the way you’re “supposed to” for a lasting relationship. But we’ve been together almost a year and it’s the happiest I’ve ever been. I feel adored, loved, supported, and happy. Again I’m only 19 and maybe this isn’t the man I’m going to marry, but now I know that the kind of love and feelings I want exist. And that’s the important part. Thank you for writing this.
I’m so happy there is someone who feels the same way. And I’m so happy for you that you found an amazing guy!
Omgosh you quoted me! That’s just as sweet as I’m sure these cookies will be out of the oven 🙂 THANK YOU!
Haha thanks. I just love your blog so much!